Desperately, in the confines of, what might be a borderline relationship, between vanilla and fetish, I have assumed that my partner can not fulfil the desire I have to submit and sought to satisfy that desire, with her knowledge, elsewhere.
Aware of her concerns, I have limited myself to online contact with male dominants. We have discussed her watching me being dominated but I’m frightened that it will feel awkward.
Now, I’m wondering whether I can show her how to dominate me. Again, I am unsure about how that will feel.